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啊！！！！！！ 快爆炸了。最近的生活，工作都让我快爆炸了！ 工作量少，但是，相反地，却让我越不开心。 是个需要外在压力让我表现更好的人，在这样的环境下，可说是折磨呀。 讨厌偷懒，天天吃蛇的人。 但是，未免在‘耳濡目染’之下，自己也有了蛇的样子。 所以，越发讨厌自己？！ 顶不顺堕落的自己，却随波逐流, 无法自拔 俗话说：不能改变环境，就改变自己的心态。 当你太过闲空时，就会想很多，无谓的，多余的，不可能的，发梦的... 所谓理想，梦想，真的只能想想而已吗？ 还是，看你敢不敢梦？！ 在书展，买了很多本书，试着填补空白时间 几米的 又寂寞又美好 画出了寂寞 但是美好在那里？ 毛毛兔，这个下午真好玩。至少，有毛毛兔陪你玩。。。 my sister keeper, 触动人心的叙述方式。故事很引人入胜，还在努力啃着。。。每个人，背后都有他的故事，造就了现在的他。。。 狂人日记，根本是schizophrenia with paranoid delusion 。还有阿Q，现在才真正认识他。才发现，我并不想做阿Q叻！什么啊Q精神啦？是啊Q 神经吧？！ 拼命的游泳，希望自由式可以进步点。都游了几年了，还是裹足不前。 Picture speaks a thousand words...

Past 1 month was a crazy roller coaster for me, luckily I survive the ride and landed safe. Once bitten, twice shy. That's all I can say. Moving on the new environment, initially had a culture shock due to the level of joblessness. Unconciouslly becoming lazier... spending those free time with crazy friends, makes us all crazy. Doing stupid things, talking nonsense, Ironically, I am scared of this joblessness and laziness (e.g. 1.A friend was doing non stop voluntary burping in POP room, 1. snapping photos of a person with calcified brain ) we r really 'shot' already! Need motivations, which is kinda difficult in this kind of environment Too much of anything is not good, especially joblessness Joblessness really can make you go CRAZY :)

Leave Right Now Lyricsby Will Young [Verse 1] I'm here just like I said Though its breaking every rule I've ever made My racing heart is just the same Why make it strong to break it once again? And I'd love to say I do Give everything to you But I can never now be true So I say... [Chorus]I think I'd better leave right now Before I fall any deeper I think I'd better leave right now Feeling weaker and weaker Somebody better show me how Before I fall any deeper I think I'd better leave right now [Verse 2]I'm here so please explain Why you're opening up a healing wound again I'm a little more careful Perhaps it shows But if I lose the highs, at least I'm spared the lows Bridge Now I tremble in your arms What could be the harm To feel my spirit calm So I say.. [Repeat Chorus] [Middle 8]I wouldn't know how to say How good it feels seeing you today I see you've got your smile back Like you say your right on track But you may never know why Once...

我已不能回头，天，你要伤我多久？ 我已不能回头，天，它可愿意帮我？ 多么愚蠢是我

Had a great holiday with my fellow housemates and old friends who fly all the way to sabah . It was quite a holiday, with breath taking scenery, close contact with mother nature, intense exercise , excruciating muscle ache during and after conquering mount Kinabalu ..... The first day was spent in my favorite place- karaok box. Amazingly, all my housemates went for karaok session! Finally can hear everyone voices. Following day, we drove our way up to Kundasang , check in to a fabulous resort, pine resort. What is so great about the resort? The scenery was just awesome, you can see mount kinabalu right infront of you from the room! We did steamboat inside the room, and eat ' bao bao '! And by the way, spending a night at kund asang is a MUST thing to do, because the weather is so chilling, so suitable for a good night sleepzzZZZ The second MUST DO things in kundasang is to visit DESA farm. It is a cow farm and they produce local milk. The view from the farm will give...

I have an allergic nose, or more specific, is allergic rhinitis. My body is allergic to many things, crabs, prawns, dust, mites... This nose problem started way long ago, primary school actually. I still remember one day when I was in tuition center, teacher look at my dark eye circle asking me: 'did u rub your eye with ink or something? why your dark circle so obvious?!' Being so young and innocent, I din't understand her concern. But think back, why would a primary school student has so obvious dark circle right? they can't be sleep deprived or something! dark circle, and funny enough, i have 双眼皮 at my right eye, one eye only After many years, only I found out, the dark circle is caused by my allergic rhinitis. Medically, is called allergic shiner. Basically it is caused by poor blood circulation due to nose congestion. Why suddenlly wanna write about my nose? haha. Because, recently got 2 friends actually can't help to tell me that I snore while I sleep (because...

You will never imagine how powerful the effect of FB . I was shocked last time when I found out that my mother knew about my hideous hair cut, by checking on the photos i uploaded on my FB . She is the typical chinese aunty , who dont even know how to use a computer. But she mange to check on my FB with my relative's help. I go back and ask, found out that my relative will actually help her to get to my account and see my status and photos... kuang 3 today, I was bored and looking through my 表姐 FB , found out that my another aunty also has a FB account!!!!!!Shocked!!!not only that, all aunties are updated to what is happening in FB too.... I guess I should stop expressing myself too much in FB , and putting link for my blog to FB . What if someday my mum starts calling me asking me things I wrote in my blog?! like that 1 i wrote I'm not okay?! Anyway, all the things I wrote on my blog is only to release my stress, if I am still writing, means I am okay (in case my moth...