Depression...
I think I have the houseman-related-depression. Housemanship is just something that is not meant for a normal human being. Even though people keep telling me I should be grateful to start with surgery, but I already feel like crap now. Doing round in the morning, I am afraid to say something stupid or not accurate that is going to irritate the specialists and MOs, checking everything is done for at least 2 times, yet still will miss out something. Reading Ultrasound findings and memorizing every important points, because if I dont, people thinks that I am not doing my job. People expect me to be the last to go back home, waiting for on call people to come. kena scolded becasue I went back without waiting for the on call people...wrote the drug's dose wrongly and kena marked, wrote something stupid in case note and I am famous because of that-the houseman who does all tumor marker for patient with colo rectal ca, and is there something called ca 153(I was thinking of ca 135)? (I tho