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喜欢听芭辣的伤心的歌，但是，可能是最近听了太多，心情好像被影响了。 陷入一种忧郁的氛围，像漩涡一样，将我淹没。 换了新的环境，没有收音机，没有得上网听电台， 只有，在我laptop的那些歌。 当我听一首歌，我会不断从复，你相信吗？驾车来这个新地方，两个小时，我都差不多在重复同一首歌。A little bit too much? 是歌词太过动人？旋律过于动容? 还是听歌的人。。。 你喜欢这些‘芭辣’的歌吗？ 伴-黄小琥 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TuYrCqhL4nY 沒那麼簡單-黃小琥 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5d2DqY6DezA 黃小琥-殼 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DL4z8A30mJ4 我要快樂 - 張惠妹 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CM43Cii2eD0 张惠妹 如果你也听说 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V8Hkm7kd4Gg 张惠妹 - 人质 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_o5QZ4HKgq0

每当夜深人静，无法入眠，就会不断重复这首歌 它道出了，都市人的心情 快乐， 睡得安稳， 乐观， 这些，看似简单，有时，却难如登天。 我要快乐，我要能睡得安稳。 明天去唱 k, 一定要唱的歌。 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CM43Cii2eD0&feature=related 还有，忘了说，这个部落格的上的素描，要说的就是， 好想可以睡得象小孩一样，安稳无忧。 但是，有人说，画里的小孩，看起来很伤心的样子。。。 嗯，你说呢？ 睡得安稳？还是心事重重？

This afternoon, when I was about to start my pm round in my ward, got a phone from the counter. I went to answer, is a MO calling me: hey, poh . Are u free now? can come down to clinic now? After answering yes, then I went down to clinic. In this current posting, when a MO looks for you, you can expect something is not right. Because they only will look for you when you screw up something/ ur job is not properly done. with that in mind, I kinda prepare myself for it. Went into the clinic room, I saw a patient that I discharged last week. I knew it he must be wanting to point out my mistakes. (But I am pretty sure that I did everything well before discharging the patient!) He started talking: you discharge the patient? where is the referral letter? (FYI, this patient was admitted to o&g ward, but has psychosis symptoms, need to get appt in psychiatric and neurology clinic after discharge) OMG , I did do both referral letters!!!!He was accusing me for simply discharging patient wi

tired, exhausted, yet I cant fall asleep maybe is the cup of coffee I drank, maybe is because I am too tired?! Maybe is that it is too hot to sleep, sweating in my room!!!! Argh!!!! I hate it when I cannot fall asleep. tat sucks, tomorrow need to go to work, and it is monday, hell busy day! tagging somemore!!!! How I wish I have an Aircon in my room, how nice would it be?! I can only dream about tat. Pls let me sleep!!!!!!!!!!!

凌晨一点钟，冰冻的咖啡，电台播着好听的歌。 我不想睡。 虽然明天一样工作 怀念以前熬夜的生活。

不断重复听着这首歌。 最近，好多不容易的事情。 1。 开始新的posting, O&G, 被公认最惨的一个posting. 我也觉得如此。一开始，就要tag 比其它 posting 久。两个礼拜。还有，要在这十四天里，接生 10个，C section assit 3 个。现在酱多houseman， 抢到爆！跟自己人抢，跟人家抢，跟student nurse 抢，how pathetic?! 总算枪完我该做的了，一点都不容易！！！过了一个礼拜，还有另一个礼拜。过后，还有四个月。。。 2。 好不容易，去看了um 的 dermatologist, 拿到了我要的 retinoid acid. 谁知，queen 的 dermatologist 不要给我开始这个药。他说得好像，是我在滥用药物这样。但是，我还是insist 我要继续。他要我签consent, 说不是他的recommendation! Acne o acne, to get rid of you 真的没那么简单。 3。 长大，也并非容易事一桩。好多好多东西，现在都要靠我自己，还有其他人，期待有我可以靠。。。 “什麼都不懂的年纪 曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经。。。” 可以不可以回到什么都不懂的时候？！