After september ends...
Today is day 12 of starting new posting in new place. To adjust into this new environment, is not easy. First week, I was totally in culture shock. Being put in a department which I am not interested in, is hard to perform. Never thought of becoming a pediatric MO la, is just so not my personality. But there is no other place to go. I wanted to perform good, but it is hard when you are doing something you dont really like; and pushing myself to do something I dont really like doubles the stress. coming to a totally new place, I still get lost in the building. I dont know any of the staff here. Totally blur! Hate this feeling of being so blur, disoreintated, helpless...I feel really stupid, STUPID! week 2, I expect it to get better, but it just doesnt seem like tat... Boss and seniors expect me to perform to a certain level, which I dont think I have achieved. such a failure.... Feel so lonely, I really miss my friends. Eating dinner alone, everyday. pathetic. I wish they are here. Mis