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喜欢阴天，更爱咖啡 从中学开始，就喜欢这样。 加上熬夜，夜深人静。 最近都是阴天，加上HOD恩赐的weekend off, 难得可以呆在家里享受。 同样的阴天，咖啡。 但是，感觉却不同了。 以前，是少年不是愁滋味。 现在，是什么呢?说不上来。 习惯了忙碌，突然的休息，却觉得空虚。 盲目的上网，下载。。。 好像缺了什么似的。填不满，补不密。

Always have this transient periodic low mood episode. Usually it happens after 2 months of each new posting. I am kinda depressed over of few things now 1. 2009 on call claims havent settled 2. the Hush Puppy I bought is too big for my foot now, argh !!!!!!!! 3. Not enough money to spend for CNY 4. Have not confirmed ticket to go back kl on CNY yet Many things to settle, yet I am too low mood to go and figure things out everyday, like a robot, wake up, work, make sure orders are executed, then punch out, find fren makan , chit chat, bat gua , laugh then go back online and then sleep I enjoy my life but sometime I just forgot about taking care of 'myself'. doing laundry only once a week, leave my clothes unfolded everywhere in my room, dint claim my on calls, dint plan about my flight ticket.........I should hav more time for 'myself' Need some energy to get things done , but always feel lazy when come back home. all i want to do is just to pamper myself after long w

Finally, the line is stable and I have the mood and time to blog. It is new year, 2010. Reflecting back 2009, many things happened. Good and Bad. It has been quite a year, seriouslly . From passing final MBBS exam, to starting to work and finally adapating to the working environment now...looking back, I really am amazed how fast time flies Besides work, many things happened on the people surrounding me. Some really shocked me and I was really bothered. I think adulthood is just not easy, and reality is cruel and humans are weak. Why sound so sad, actually, I think I did enjoy year 2009, especially the end part. Coming to sabah wasn't a bad choice afterall . Meeting a lot of great people here and working here is actually kinda fun. Enjoy the laughter and the makan and the sing k (even though very few sing k sessions) Unbelievably , I have worked for half a year. I really amazed myself. Initially thought I couldn't make it through. But now I kinda enjoy it. Life is getting b